Schnake

I have recently found that I put a lot more energy into writing meaningless comments or facebook updates than I do into writing this blog. Thus the following examples:

"And although I won't pretend to have understood more than two paragraphs of this post, the only two which if read as one would not be succeeded by another, I will comment positively on what I did understand, at least in part, by saying, "hmm..." with an abnormally furrowed brow and immediately followed by, "I agree!" a statement which individuals such as myself who find it difficult to procure more eloquent responses to such intricate monologues often invoke, and do so, of course, in the most diplomatic tone available to them - a tactic which is commonly employed by those who enjoy saying things and wish to be diplomatic about it."

~A comment on a friends blog post~

"I took my nephew to the park today. I didn't fit in playing with him and all the other kids, and I didn't fit in standing around with the parents. But I found belonging with all the confused college students who read existential philosophy, talk about writing poetry, and post wordy conundrums on the internet... I'm home."

~A recent facebook post~

You see what I mean?!

Anyways, the real problem is that I'm not motivated to write anything good on this blog. So here's an update on my life in the form of an email I wrote to a friend recently:

So. Here's the sha-bang on my life right now:
I live at my parents house in the woods outside of Philomath Oregon. I work for them doing projects outside like clearing out wood and making burn piles, and moving some gravel, and other fun stuff. I'll probably make more money this summer than I ever have in my life (which isn't saying much). Anyways, my grandpa just turned 90 my sister and her kids are here from Tanzania, and my brother is getting married in two weeks. I rode my bike the other night and stumbled upon a large group of students in Corvallis who were going to ride around town with glow sticks, so I joined them. There were probably 500 people and it was wonderful.
I spent a good part of the afternoon today at the park with my nephew which was a new experience because I was like all the other parents hanging around watching their kids. I didn't really talk to them because I felt weird, but it was still an interesting sub-culture to observe.
Today my pastor talked about how God is Good and how truly believing that will shape our lives because we won't look to other things to satisfy us. I thought that was just swell, so I'm gonna start believing it.
Lately I've been feeling like I am always trying to over-analyze everything, especially myself. I have to diagnose myself all the time and process through everything. I used to think that was a good thing, but it's been getting kind of ridiculous. I'm still not sure exactly what to do though, because I haven't analyzed these anti-analysis thoughts enough yet... ?
But that's alright.
Anyways. My life is mostly really good. I've been daydreaming about asking random girls out on dates pretty often, so I might have to do that some day just to see what it's like. I really like working outside, and playing with my nephew and niece. I went through a tough transition with being away from school, and I'm still experiencing some of that, but I'm getting to where I can look back on the year as a whole and see it differently. I need to start writing some blog posts about it or something. Oh and I just borrowed some cool books from my anthropologist sister and brother-in-law.

Well. this is getting kind of long. I always forget that I need to externally process.

Oh. So you can pray that I will stay engaged in life and not be too analytical or take myself too seriously. Also, I've been very aware that I need to be engaged in some more community down here, but it takes effort (unlike in Discover) to find people and I haven't been trying. But I know that is really what I need, so pray that I'll stop being a fool and that God would send me some people.